Pet Peeve

Haven yelled at anybody so angrily for the longest time...
And i was so seriously pissed, i shouted 'fuck you' in his face.

He should have known it was coming. He never learns. It keeps happening over and over again ever since we were kids. I also cannot understand why it makes my blood boils so madly every time it happens. People may think it's overreacting, but it's still my BIGGEST PET PEEVE!!!

I hate it when people touch/take things without my permission! Hate, hate, hate it with a vengeance! It's not that i am selfish, or that i don't want to lend it to you, it's just so rude when you take my things without even telling me at all. And i only find out its missing, when i really need it or you've broken it, used it up, etc Also, the thought of you, or anyone else, rummaging through my stuff taking MY things makes me instantly ballistic! I mean, i really go crazy and so angry at that person. Seriously, the first thought that naturally comes to my mind is that 'did you steal or take any other things?!' I may be thinking 'too much' or be overly presumptuous and it's wrong of me to doubt you, but i really cant help it, that's the first thing that come straight to my mind! I was so bloody angry, i even came up with extreme measures of barricading my room when i am not at home, so no one can take my things and make me go all crazy again.

I want to keep calm when i am angry, because when i am angry i will just start shouting really harsh words in your face and just kill you with my wrath. Ten minutes later after cooling down, i'll feel super regretful over the aweful exchange and blame myself for not handling the situation in a better non-confrontational way. I am really sorry, i didn't mean to yell at you like that. But all these years, i keep telling you 'don't take, just ask me first' but my words just never stays in your head hurh. I mean, when i want to borrow your things, i always ask, i dont just take, that will be stealing. I did tried to minimize these 'incidents' with polite 'Keep your hands off my things' letters, nice talks and reminders but you just don't get it. Neither does my parents, they think i am overreacting too.

Over the years, i have had awful awful experiences, with maids that steal or anyhow arrange my things and especially YOU. Every time, i thoroughly analyze my behavior and seriously tried my best to curb this crazy anger that comes outta me whenever someone messes with my things, but it still makes me go crazy every single time even with the smallest things. So, i can only conclude that this pet peeve will be ingrained in me for life.